Safe Sex that isnt Safe.

okay, based on observation, here are safe sex myths that im sure most of you guys are doing, i did it, and i became a poz.

so if you're doing at least one of the things listed below, get yourself tested, cause, sorry to burst your bubble, you're not doing it safe.

1: unprotected sex with a monogamous partner.

this will be number one on my list as this is how i became infected. so, some believe that you can only acquire HIV if your either gay (new in the list), promiscuous (not-so-new-in-the-list) and a sex worker (age old belief), im sorry, like what i said on my first post - it doesnt just take a lifestyle, it just takes one person. you may be monogamous to your partner now - but admit the fact you arent the first one he had sex with. his previous partner could be infected and not know it, thus he's infected and not know it, and now, it's you.

2: all of my tests are negative so im invincible and i can just have sex! and im not gay!

no one's invincible from HIV. c'mon, even a baby can be HIV positive! (infected by a poz mom), much more you! you could be just lucky that you had your test done when you're in the window period, or you have yourself tested way too early for the virus to be detected.

also, let me add, it isnt true that HIV is only for homosexuals, you know why? because us homosexuals are STRONG ENOUGH to face reality and have ourselves tested, while most heterosexuals aren't strong enough to have themselves tested, which explains two things ; 1: why most study say most HIV poz are gay men (as we're the majority of the respondent) and 2: why there are babies that are born HIV poz (because the dad or mom is too afraid to test themselves.) got it? got it!

3: you're using condom, great! but you're using a wrong lubricant.

so you're using a condom, great, but if you're using a latex condom, and you're using an oil based lubricant, you're doing it wrong. oil destroys the barrier in the latex condom, thus giving you and your partnet without the protection that you need. also, you need to choose the right condom for the right lube to the right use... we have silicone based lube, water based lube, and oil. some also wants to have sex in the pool, the condoms are not tested on chlorinated water, so it's still dangerous.

anyway, better buy the KY lubricant, and check the quality of the condom.

4: condom, check! lubricant, correct - but you swallow.

now this i dont know yet, but you can definitely get HIV via swallowing as the virus, though not found in the sperm, is found in the semen itself, now, if you use your voice professionally, you can never be too sure as sometimes, we (singers/speakers alike) develop nodules on our throat, which could give sores in our gums, thus - a point of entry.

5: condom, check! lubricant, correct, you dont swallow, but you rim.

i guess i dont need to explain why rimming is dirty, naturally. the important thing here and in number 4 is that your gums and throat are intact and has no point of entry.

6: no condom, so no penetration, but you gave good blowjob and played with the precum, or maybe even swallowed - and you brushed your teeth before you give head.

brushing your teeth before sex is BAD. the bristles makes some sores in the gums that you wont notice - this are one point of entry too many.

7: you have your partner cum outside, cool, then you saw that hey, that lil pimple of mine over there just opened up! or you have a small wound there and your partner's cum hit it.

lesser chances but its a point of entry.

8: you have protected sex, used the right lubricant, didnt swallow directly from the cockhead, but you played with the cum.

some will drink the cum from the condom, some will lick their fingers with it. yeah the virus could be dead in a few seconds, but remember, i said, could be dead. not is dead so there is still a risk.

9: everything is good, but cum in my face.

this is only safe if you close your eyes and mouth - and your face is free of acne and pimples and small cuts that could serve as point of entry. but u can never be too sure.

10: you used a condom that is either expired - or u placed in your wallet/pocket .

did you know that condoms are very special? and they need good space, and can only be used on a limited time? i dont need to say more.


so now, let's see.... did you really have safe sex last night?

the virus spreads...

It was a Wednesday, the day after my first test with HIV was positive and i was waiting for the confirmatory results.

I'm still in denial, holding on to the fact that the confirmatory results would come out negative (it didnt).

on my mind i played again that night with my 5th one, which i'll call J, and tried to convince myself it could be wrong.

i was on my way to school when my mind plays our break up sex like a good old porn video, when suddenly,

a cute guy in a purple shirt grinned at me.

ah, MRT, one of the cruise spots. yeah, i know i dont party, but how do i get my boys? you might ask.

1: starbucks, really, they all buy those loner ones who sits around reading a book. not just the customers, the cute baristas too.

2: gym: the ultimate hide out.

3: recording gig and nationwide TV contests - most of my exes are singers like me as well, (including the 5th one). the starbucks boys and the gym boys are just there for the flirting, since i always say no to going somewhere else, just flirts are all they ended up to be, the singers, however, are a different story.

4: i live in a condominium where it could be called , "gay garden heaven". all kinds of gays are here, tranny, bisexuals, discreets, ALL OF THEM are here.


so going back, this purple guy, was just smiling at me, i smiled back, as it turns out, we both have the same stop, and we both went to the LRT for the next stop...

probably thinking it was fate, he walked on near me, got on the same train, stood in front of me.

with a hand in his pocket, he reached out for my crotch.

sensing that i have no choice - as it was crowded, he felt my crotch all the way, not satisfied, he placed his butt on my crotch.

stilll in shock on my HIV status and on this guy, it opened a new perception on my part.

I know my HIV status, and I COULD SAVE A LIFE.

this guy, who basically wants me to fuck him, had i known im negative, i probably would have (he's so cute, typical chinito thing going on in him). but now that i know, I wouldnt (as condom sex is a taboo for me during those moment).

he begged for my number, i didnt gave it to him, until now, he plays on my mind.

is he negative? or a poz too? does he know his status?

i hope he doesnt find another charming positive guy like me somewhere else. if he did, I hope he'd be lucky enough to be spared by the virus either by a condom or by ignorance.

now you see, what makes me less lonely about my HIV status, is the fact that, I know, and I can say out loud. the virus definitely stops in me.


again let me say this now. get tested. it's not the end of the world, could be a beginning of a good, new one.

my life starts at 23, not ends in 23.

ok, first and foremost, 10 quick facts about me.

1: I'm 23 years old.

2: Graduating college student.

3: singer / actor

4: a flirt, yes, promiscuous, no, virgin, no, frankly i only have sex if i have a boyfriend.

5: I dont drink, I dont smoke - not because im a health buff, but because im taking good care of my ever so powerful na singing voice. :P

6: I dont party, my nightlife only consists of a concert / theater play and starbucks after the event. see numbers 3 and 5 on why my nightlife is non-existent.

7: I have had a total of 5 ex-boyfriends. starting when i was on my 4th year high school. longest relationship - 2 years, shortest - 9 months-the fifth one.

8: I am out, as far as i can remember, my family are open minded yet a bit of a conservative type, religious yes, but not to the point that they consider homosexuality a ticket to the fires of hell. i remember back then my sister got so angry with mom because mom is so nice to my boyfriend - and mom is not yet allowing her to have a boyfriend.

9: my fifth ex boyfriend, informed me a month ago via skype that he just got tested positive for HIV in his home country (australia).

10: last tuesday, after two weeks of waiting, the confirmatory results told me that, I am, HIV positive.



Ok now, Im writing this blog to let you know the importance of HIV tests, and safe sex. some say you can get HIV via lifestyle, i have a different take on that. my controlled life is a safe ticket to living a HIV negative life, no, it doesnt take just a lifestyle.

it just takes one person. and that person could be the one you're cuddling and loving right now. could be you, even.

you can never be too sure, get tested, it may not be too late.

as for me....

... well, sorry to burst your bubble, im not the lonely type, let me tell ya,

Im NOT dying. I'm Living.